Anxiety In The Work Place...

Anxiety at work.. OMG this gives me Anxiety just thinking about it. This is the toughest for me to deal with currently because it is so present for me. I've been having a lot of Anxiety at work lately well it is as I'm going into work. I don't know why I think it is because I hate my job so much. Ya that’s it.. Problem solved.... Wrong! There is a lot of past incidents with my work that I hate and regret but work is work and it pays my bills.  Some days. Wait most days I wish I was loaded and could not work and just sit in bed and blog and make YouTube Videos daily and watch my bank account fill up... Feel me. I'm not going to go into details about past incidents but they've been horrible and it is practically impossible in my city to find another job and especially one that has full benefits and flexible hours since I've been there for 6 years. Which is 6 years too long. lol It also might have something to do with the fact that I feel like I live there I mean I'm only part time but I’m there 30 hours a week. It is hard for me to work through the anxiety but 99% of the time by the time I'm about 5 minutes into my shift.. I'm fine. Other times I've gotten to work and just panicked for about an hour off an on which sucks because my mind is eventually fucking with me. It is hard for me to deal with this because my work doesn't understand when I say I need to leave for a few minutes to calm down.. it just isn't possible, because my work is a grocery store and that is customer based so I'm always serving customers and that’s all they care about is serving customers so it is all about the money.. Figures that don't pay me enough to deal with the daily shit that I do deal with and then they don't understand my Anxiety and sometimes I can't control it and I need out of there... this is all just too much for me most days to handle. I could probably ramble on for ever here so I'm going to end it here.. feel free  to email, tweet.. etc to contact me!